Shitty Friday

I'm sure you've noticed I've sort of strayed from the 365 idea. I might decide to start it back, or I might not.

You know, it's funny that I always seem to have a lot on my mind until I actually log in to my blogspot and try and put it all together.

What sucks even more is half the things I want to say, I can't say.

How do I make myself desirable?

I just wish there was some way I could cut myself off from the world for a whole 24 hours. I lied, 48 hours sounds a hell of a lot better. I just wanna be alone. I just want someone to miss me. I wish I never left your mind.

If you love me, tell me you love me. If you see me as pretty, tell me I'm pretty.

I don't know where I'm going with this. I'm just having a late night ramble. I'm sick of my life. I want change. I want to make you happy. I want us to be happy, together. I try so hard.

Fuck school. Fuck work. Fuck everything in my life.

I know this sounds like I'm just putting myself down for attention, but these are my feelings. I can't pick and choose how I feel. I don't give a fuck what anyone else thinks about this. I just need to let it out somehow.

I want you to want me.