November 28, 2010

Day 39
This may sound lame, but for the first time I think I'm in a mature relationship. If you knew my past relationships, you'd understand. But, there's no need to sit and rant about things you probably don't care about.
Have you ever felt like you have so much to say, but you just can't seem to spit it out? That's how I am right now. So I'll make a list of all the things that come to me.

1. I'm so sick of one of my ex's trying to talk to me. I just don't get it. It's been almost a year and you still can't leave me alone. You leave things in my formspring that I just know are you. You text me when you know I'm not going to reply. Before I blocked you on Facebook, you'd send me messages, comment my pictures, and like all my status'. Guess what? I'm over you and have been for a long time.
2. I've realized you can't change people and you really shouldn't try to. If you love that person, try and relate to them in all situations. Before you jump to conclusions, or make assumptions just think for a second what they might be going through, or what they might be feeling. It's selfish not to do so.
3. Some people get so much, materialistically but they don't appreciate it. My family does not have as much money as some, so I can't get all the things you get. It comes to a point where you start expecting things from your parents, or whoever may be giving you these things. Some people spend money like it's nothing. Some people just can't afford to have simple things like a washing machine, or even a car. Then there's you, who has everything and still isn't appreciative.
4. I've realized something about myself. That is, I'm extremely insecure. How many people do you know truly admit that? I can't really think of any, at least that would share it on a blog. I can't help myself. There's so many features about me that I want to change. This has been an inner struggle of mine for quite some time now. I can't help comparing myself to others and thinking, "She's prettier, she's skinnier..." It's pathetic and I hate it, but what can I do to change how I feel?


If you don't learn anything else from my blog tonight, please remember, don't stalk people, don't be selfish, be appreciative and be content with who you are.