November 30, 2010

Day 41
Life lesson for the day: Always appreciate what you have because you never know when it could be taken away.

November 29, 2010

2011

Day 40
Tonight was the Powderpuff Football benefit game for Brad Bryant. I didn't even go to school today because I felt so bad. So yeah, about my day...I stayed in bed all day and it felt gooooooood!

So something came across me tonight that I'd like to talk about. I was talking to someone tonight about how they've been in a relationship for two and a half years and two months ago, they went on break until he can learn how to treat her basically. As the story goes, they're still on break and she told me how she cries almost everyday because of it. I was thinking, that's really sad when you've been with someone for that long and you get to a point where you're not together anymore for whatever reason. Like think about it...you spend so much time with that person for so long and one day, they're not there. It hurts, I'm sure. I don't ever want to turn out like that. I don't want to have to depend on someone everyday to just be there and then one day, they're gone. That's what makes falling in love complicated. Some people are scared to open up and become close to that person for this very reason. Others, on the other hand, such as myself, tend to fall hard and then end up getting hurt. The conversation tonight changed my outlook on everything. Don't fall too hard too fast.

Facebook status of the day: "just let it go."

November 28, 2010

Day 39
This may sound lame, but for the first time I think I'm in a mature relationship. If you knew my past relationships, you'd understand. But, there's no need to sit and rant about things you probably don't care about.
Have you ever felt like you have so much to say, but you just can't seem to spit it out? That's how I am right now. So I'll make a list of all the things that come to me.

1. I'm so sick of one of my ex's trying to talk to me. I just don't get it. It's been almost a year and you still can't leave me alone. You leave things in my formspring that I just know are you. You text me when you know I'm not going to reply. Before I blocked you on Facebook, you'd send me messages, comment my pictures, and like all my status'. Guess what? I'm over you and have been for a long time.
2. I've realized you can't change people and you really shouldn't try to. If you love that person, try and relate to them in all situations. Before you jump to conclusions, or make assumptions just think for a second what they might be going through, or what they might be feeling. It's selfish not to do so.
3. Some people get so much, materialistically but they don't appreciate it. My family does not have as much money as some, so I can't get all the things you get. It comes to a point where you start expecting things from your parents, or whoever may be giving you these things. Some people spend money like it's nothing. Some people just can't afford to have simple things like a washing machine, or even a car. Then there's you, who has everything and still isn't appreciative.
4. I've realized something about myself. That is, I'm extremely insecure. How many people do you know truly admit that? I can't really think of any, at least that would share it on a blog. I can't help myself. There's so many features about me that I want to change. This has been an inner struggle of mine for quite some time now. I can't help comparing myself to others and thinking, "She's prettier, she's skinnier..." It's pathetic and I hate it, but what can I do to change how I feel?


If you don't learn anything else from my blog tonight, please remember, don't stalk people, don't be selfish, be appreciative and be content with who you are.

November 27, 2010

Day 38
Wanna know a secret?
Sometimes, before I go to bed at night, I pray that I won't wake up again.

Facebook status of the day: "And I swear to everything, when I leave this Earth it's gonna be on both feet, never knees in the dirt."

November 23, 24, 25, 26

Thanksgiving!

Day 34, 35, 36, 37
Thanksgiving break was spent at the beach with my family.

Facebook status' of the break: "thinking about a certain, certain somebody." and "Okay so they can make a store like Big and Tall but what about a store like Short and Small?" and "She gotta donk, but her homegirl don't."

November 22, 2010

♥

Day 33
The days seem to get longer and longer. I'm so glad we are getting out of school tomorrow. A whole two days of school in a week sounds amazing. I need more sleep. I need more time to do the things I want to do.

Facebook status of the day: "everything's gonna be alright ♥"

November 19, 20, 21

I know I'm cheating but I didn't have any other pictures to put up here
Day 32

Day 31

Day 30


Thank God for the weekend! ♥

Facebook status of the weekend: "some people just make me sick to my stomach."

November 18, 2010

Chanel

Day 29
Hmmm, I wonder why some people feel like it is so hard to apologize. I don't get it.

Facebook status of the day: "KRISTIN CAMPBELL IS THE BEST :)" and "really needs this weekend."

November 17, 2010

Bad hair day

Day 28
This day has been alright. I feel somewhat better after I finished some schoolwork. Tonight I went to church with Justin. I'm starting to think it's just not for me. No explanation needed. On a different note, I'm extremely proud of myself. There was something really bothering me for a long time and today was the day I was mature enough to just let it go. I've come to the realization that people are going to what they want to do and honestly, you can't do a damn thing about it. So why worry about it? You'll just end up making yourself upset in the end. If anyone's reading this blog, I promise you you'll feel so much better if you just let it go. Maybe this is my first step to actually starting to trust people. We'll see...

Facebook status of the day: "What up. What's happening?"

November 16, 2010

♥

Day 27
Today wasn't bad. It wasn't good either. I'm so sick of school it's not even funny. I don't get how when I'm at school I don't actually mind doing my work, but when I get home I just have no motivation whatsoever to do it. Teachers think they're the only ones who give homework. Speaking of homework...why do we have homework? We're in school from 8:00 until 3:15. Each class is 90 minutes. We can't get all what we need to get done in 90 minutes? When I go home I'm in a bad mood knowing I have like 3 hours of homework to do. This is pathetic.

Facebook status of the day: "it ain't trickin' if you got it."

November 15, 2010

Just felt like it

Day 26
I guess sometimes you just gotta hold on and remember what matters most.

Facebook status of the day: "copy-catters, bite us."

November 14, 2010

♥

Day 25
For the first time, I'm not afraid.


Facebook status of the day: "I got mine. Just worry about getting yours."

November 13, 2010

This is the life

Day 24
Today was a good day. All I did was sleep until like one. Mariah and I went to a late lunch at So Go. The food was good, but we felt sick afterwards. Go figure. Then tonight, Justin and I met up with some friends and we went bowling. Thank God it's the weekend. I needed it.
muah! :*

Facebook status of the day: "Cali baby!"

November 12, 2010

This is how I feel

Day 23
Today was a good day, hope I have me a great night.

November 11, 2010

I need sleep

Day 22
Happy Veteran's Day!
Not that happy for it, but whatever. Actually, today's not a happy day at all. I'm having one of those times where I just wish everything would just go away, at least for a day. I'm having one of those days where I just wish I would've stayed in bed the entire day. I'm having one of those days where every little stupid thing pisses me off. I hate those days. So basically, my day didn't go well. I guess you just have to remember, it could always be worse. I always like to think that things could always be worse just so I'll feel better about myself and the situation I'm in. That's the thing though, I'm not really in a situation other than I'm just not liking myself today. I can't seem to get along with anyone today either. Why can't it be summer? Why can't it be the holidays? Or something. Yeah, this blog is entirely depressing. I do apologize if you took the time to read this. And if you didn't catch it earlier, my day sucked.

Facebook status of the day: "I'm chillin, but my swag on full attack."

November 10, 2010

Mirror picture, best I could do

Day 21
Today went as good as possible. I hate school. I just want to graduate already. This senior project is really killing me. Today all I have to say is I don't understand the point in cheating on someone. The way I see it is that if you're in a relationship, why not get out of the relationship if you're not happy? I mean, obviously you would cheat from being unhappy. Sure, some men say it's more of lust thing than anything, but really...there's always someone else on the other end of things whether you realize it or not. So for the sake of those that get cheated on, just end it. ♥
peaceloveandhappiness.

Facebook status of the day: "if you didn't know me then, guaranteed you know me now."

November 9, 2010

Had pictures made today

Day 20
It doesn't feel too good when someone you're close to takes someone else's side. You feel like, "Damn, guess they mean more." Or at least I do. Here again, I expect too much from people. Is it too much to ask for some support? Is it too much to ask for change? Maybe when I'm not here you'll realize it, but then it'll be too late. Or maybe one day I'll do the same to you, and then you can tell me how it feels. Then again, that's not right. Why would I wanna put something on you like you put on me? Woah woah, this is getting too serious. Maybe I should just stop and forget about it. Trust me, I would if I could. Speaking of trust...I don't think I trust anyone. I don't think I'm capable of that.

Facebook status of the day: "Never again."

November 8, 2010

I don't give a fuck

Day 19
Today has been pretty good so far. Subway for lunch always makes me feel better. I don't really have a life lesson to share for the day. Just remember, karma's a bitch.

Facebook status of the day: "Young mane for president."

November 7, 2010

Old, but oh well

Day 18
Today was amazing! I spent the whole day with Justin. We ate lunch at Olive Garden and then spent the rest of our time watching movies at my house. We watched some movie called Teeth. It was extremely weird. I'd suggest this movie if you like to watch movies like The Human Centipede. Basically this girl who was a virgin had some kind of mutation to where her vagina had teeth in it. Some guy tried to rape her and when he got it in, the teeth in her vagina bit off his penis. Then she would have sex with guys just to be mean and would end up biting their dicks off. She even had sex with her brother and bit his dick off! Grossssssss. We didn't choose this movie because we thought it'd be cool. We were looking for another movie to get and the lady behind the counter suggested it...weird...I still don't have camera batteries, so enjoy this old picture.
☮ and ♥

November 6, 2010

Old, but whatever

Day 17
Sorry I don't have a new picture up. My camera needs new batteries. I had a pretty good day. It started off with my car not starting! Therefore, I couldn't go to work and we finally figured out the battery was dead when it was too late to go to work. Then, mommy took Mariah and I shopping at the Harbison mall since neither of us had a car at the time. Then, we spent the rest of the night at the Carraway household eating steak and potatoes. Yum ♥ Oh yeah, and I got my cartilage pierced today!

Facebook status of the day: "I found Moby Dick!" and "I've been hustlin. Hustlin hard."

November 5, 2010

I just put on a smile


Day 16
Today was good. Tonight was bad.
Some people don't realize the things they say can really hurt someone. You may not have had the intentions of hurting them, but in the end, sorry doesn't really make you forget. Maybe I just expect too much from people. It seems like sometimes I go out of my way to make others happy when in the end, I end up hurting myself for making those extra efforts. Well, I'm here to tell you that it sucks.

Facebook status of the day: "is tired of trying."

November 4, 2010

LOVE PINK ♥

Obviously, I didn't actually take this picture. Mom did.
Day 15
So let me explain myself.
I had decided to take a break from my blog because of the fact that many of my ideas were stolen throughout my entire blog. Originality. Be your own person. Why is it that you feel the need to swagger jack? Let me just say, if I have taken something off anyone's blog I have always given credit to the person writing the blog. For example, my 365 portraits ideas came from Kayla Melton and that day I wrote a list of 40 things about me I credited Marissa Drost for that idea. That is how it's supposed to be. I do appreciate your adoration for me. Obviously you're feeling my swagger. So next time, before you go and try and recreate anything I did, just realize, you're only making yourself look faker than you already are.
On a lighter note, I'm completely happy with my life. Justin and I have been Facebook official for a month today. :) Things are finally starting to turn around for me. I'm making much better grades than I was first quarter. Mariah Monk is by far the best friend I've ever had.

I got mine, go get yours.

Oh! And...LIL WAYNE GOT OUT OF RIKERS TODAY!

Facebook status of the day: "Holla at a Free Weezy."

P.S. I love Kristin Campbell & Savannah Corder ♥