November 13, 2011

I don't know what happened today. It just wasn't a good day. I feel like all I ever do anymore is eat. The good thing about today was that I got all of my homework done. I got it done of course while I was supposed to be sleeping. I feel like I'm wired. I can't sleep. Maybe it's because I'm upset. I couldn't tell you all the things I'm upset about. It would take too long. For starters, I accidentally threw away a gas gift card that my aunt sent me, I need money for a new phone by Friday and I'm not counting on my paycheck sufficing it, I need money for Christmas presents...speaking of that I even asked my grandma if instead of her buying me a Christmas present if she would give me money before Christmas so I can buy other people presents. I don't understand why I don't have money. All my money goes to food and gas. I seriously just wish I could drop out of college and get a real job. This minimum wage bullshit ain't cutting it. It's really hard working at a daycare that pays less than all the other daycares in your county. It makes me angry. My job right now is the only one that is going to work with my schedule. Next semester's going to kick my ass. I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm overwhelmed. Fuck everything. Ugh, I know I'm complaining and I probably shouldn't be. I bet there are so many more people with more serious problems with me, but it's just so hard juggling so many different things. Whatever, I'm done.

xoxo :/

November 8, 2011

Okay, so seriously...fuck my dad. I've never met a bigger asshole. He seriously could fall of the face of the planet right now and I wouldn't care. He's a manipulative, sneaky, conniving little bastard. There's a nice little hot coal with your name on it in hell.