365 days of my life.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

August 30, 2011

I don't feel good. Today's not been good at all. I fell asleep in Biology class. It's super boring. I like my professor, but he's really dry. Math class was difficult. I didn't understand a lot, but when she explained it I could understand how to do it. When I got home, it was a different story. Work sucked. The little kids were extra bad today. Go figure. Why wouldn't they be bad on the day I don't feel good? I can't figure out how to do my homework. God forbid I ask someone how to do it. I still don't feel good. I just want to go to bed and forget today ever happened. I desperately need the weekend, like now.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

August 25, 2011

Whether people want to admit it or not, college does change people.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Friday, August 19, 2011

August 19, 2011

I had a wonderful night with Justin tonight. We went to eat at Arby's and then cuddled up and watched Hall Pass. :) I'm sad I won't get to see him tomorrow and he's too stubborn to stay until Sunday. Yay for me not having plans for Sunday.

Thursday, August 18, 2011

August 18, 2011

I'm feeling rather hostile. I got called into work this morning at 7:20. I'm exhausted, but I can't sleep. The usual. On top of all this I have a sinus infection. Wonderful! I think I've decided I'm not having children. I had to change a stinky diaper this morning and I'm not even kidding, I gagged at least seven times to the point where I had to get the other teacher to wipe the kid. So embarrassing. I've never been like that before, but oh well. I had Sumo's for dinner tonight. It was so good! I wasn't semi-full and still ate almost all my food. Monday can't come faster! I'm ready to start school, on the real. I guess just cause everyone else is. I'm not exactly sure.

In case you're wondering - I've sort of developed a new attitude. I'm starting to just not give a shit anymore. That in itself is both good and bad. I'm not even about to explain myself. I feel like watching The Golden Girls. ♥ that show. I haven't the slightest clue what I'm doing tomorrow, I just know Justin's coming home. Yay! :) Then Saturday I have to go to my grandma's birthday party all the way in Dillon. *Sigh* You know how that goes.

Well, just for the occasion, I might as well...This reminds me of Uncle Buck!

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

August 17, 2011

You disgust me.

Oh My!
♥ that song.

Time to get in shape!

Monday, August 15, 2011

August 15, 2011

I haven't seen Ben Frank in so long I forgot what that nigga looks like.

Things are a lot different now. For the good and for the bad. I hate my parents. I can't say that enough. I just want to move out. Although, I'm not stupid. I know if I do that there's no coming back and I'm not sure if it's worth it right now. I just wish school would go ahead and start. I'm ready to get this shit over with. Tonight I skyped Justin. I miss him so much but I feel like that's better than not seeing him at all. That's why I'm mad at my parents. My dad's trying to tell me I can't drive to see him every other weekend. What the fuck? Is he kidding? It's every OTHER weekend. Not every weekend, not every day. God, he's such a fucking idiot.

For the record, I think I'm finding out who my true friends are. I might have said that before, but I really found out now. Friends don't lie to friends.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

August 13, 2011

Worst Day Ever.

I might not get on here for a while. I just don't feel like writing anymore...

Thursday, August 11, 2011

August 11, 2011

Lately everyone's been stressed out. I'm about to go crazy. Justin's leaving Saturday and it really bothers me. The closer it comes to Saturday, the worse I feel about the whole situation. Not to mention the fact that we're arguing right now doesn't make matters better, whatsoever. I'm at the point where I don't know if I should cry or just keep myself together. For the record - assumption is the mother of all fuck ups. I seriously haven't felt this bad in a while. That's actually a lie. I can think of a time right now in July when I felt even worse than this.

I need you in my life.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

August 10, 2011

I had a really good day today. I found out to rent my books for this semester it's going to be around two hundred dollars. I'm not too happy about that. I did some chores around the house and then went to work. I left early and went to Justin's house. I'm so so sad that he's leaving. I know he won't be that far away, but still. I wish I was going to USC this year so I could be closer to him, but I know everything's going to be alright. :)

xoxo

Hey Baby

Monday, August 8, 2011

August 8, 2011

I woke up this morning and sat around for a little bit. I got out the shower and tried to start getting ready and got called into work early. I got there around two and worked until like six. After that I went to Justin's house and spent the rest of the day with him and his family. We went to Waffle House for dinner and it made me feel fat. It always does. I came home and got yelled at yet again tonight. My parents are dickwads. Like seriously, fuck them. That's all I have to say about that. I need to start taking my Lexapro again.

Dammit man

Sunday, August 7, 2011

August 7, 2011

Yesterday was miserable. Today was slightly better. I spent the night at Sierra's. We had fun, even though we didn't do a lot. I really like the company. I can't stand to be alone. Being alone when I'm upset makes me even more upset. Isn't everyone like that? Maybe not. Hm, so anyways...I'm going through these emotions where I feel utterly confused. I feel like I need to pray and usually when I need to pray, it's serious. I'm taking in all kinds of stress from all different angles and it's becoming unbearable. My face is broken out. But, tomorrow's a new day. I have to work tomorrow and everyday after that Monday through Friday. Hello paycheck cut! I gotta get this off my chest.

Click

Friday, August 5, 2011

August 5, 2011

It's my sister's birthday today. I Went to take my Biology placement test today at Central. To move to Bio 101 you had to make a 50. Guess what I made! ...a 50. Oh well, I would've made higher if I would have studied before I took the test. At least I passed. After that I took Abigail to San Jose for her birthday lunch. There went fifteen dollars. Then my gas tank was on E...there went twenty six dollars. I went and opened my own bank account today. I'm glad I have one to myself now. Feels good. I have like no money. I still have to pay for my books and Justin's birthday present. I'm praying I'll just find money in my account when I wake up one morning. That would be fucking amazing. Having this new job at the daycare, I'm not going to make near as much as I would have at Sonic. At least this way I'll still be able to see Justin on the weekends, guaranteed.

I'm having one of those days where me and Justin just can't get along. This too shall pass. Tomorrow's a new day. Red Lobster tonight was GROSS! I can't believe it. Such a disappointment. Okay so Jersey Shore last night was amazing. It was so good to see all of them again. I seriously feel like I know all of them personally. Sad, right? Hmmm, well I don't think anyone reads these things but if you do, here's a playlist of music you should listen to in your free time.

1. Old School
2. Self Made
3. Slow Grind Music
4. Baddest Bitch
5.

peaceloveandhappiness.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

August 4, 2011

The most amazing thing in the world is when you write something sweet on your boyfriend's wall...and he doesn't reply! God, love that. Today was not what I thought it'd be at all. I was slightly disappointed. But, life goes on. I have a lot to do tomorrow. I'm not really sure why I'm still awake, but it'll be okay.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

August 3, 2011

I just got back from the beach. I'm settled now and everything. I had a great time; especially since I got to spend the trip with the love of my life. ♥ He's amazing. I'm glad to see all my animals again. I can't wait for tomorrow. Me and Justin will be dating for ten months! :) Wooh! I miss him already.
xoxo