July 20, 2012

Since March, the last time I posted, there's been a lot of changes in my life. Some are good and some aren't so good. I just want to say a couple of things to get them off my chest. People need to mind their own damn business and stop being so judgemental especially when they're only hearing one side of the story. I honestly try to not care about what people think of me. I really do. But I'm getting better and I am going to continue to be better about it. I'm more sure than ever of who I am, what I want out of life and who I want to surround myself with and I'm the best person to make that decision. Not you. Thank you. That is all.

March 3, 2012

I know nobody gets on here anymore but I am just so distraught about the shooting that happened in Chardon, Ohio. I just feel like I need to write my feelings. Obviously, I don't know any of the people involved in this story, but reading about it online and seeing it all over the tv is starting to bother me. I cannot believe that someone would be that cruel to try to take fives lives of young people. T.J. Lane was a selfish, disturbed person. Three families do not get to see their loved ones grow up. Imagine sending your child to school, just like a normal day and getting a phone call saying they had been injured in a shooting. School is supposed to be a safe place. It is supposed to be a place where people learn and better themselves. What worries me the most is that this could happen anywhere to anyone. Nobody is an exception. What might even be worse is that there was no apparent motive for these murders/attempted murders. My heart truly goes out to the families of Demetrius Hewlin, Russell King Jr., Daniel Parmertor, Joy Rickers, and Nick Walczak. I cannot begin to imagine the pain they must be going through. It is not fair that Nick has to be brain dead for the rest of his life and Joy has to live with the horrid memories of that day. I hope that T.J. gets the maximum sentencing for what he did. I will still be praying for those families. I can't imagine losing my child in these circumstances.

This truly breaks my heart.

January 25, 2012

I haven't wrote in a loooong time. So, why not? My life's been pretty good lately. My new semester's going good. I'm struggling in my History class-of course. It's so boring! Whatever. Justin and I are still together. :) We're doing wonderful. Hmm, besides that I don't really know what's going on. If anything happens, I'll be sure to blog about it. (;

November 13, 2011

I don't know what happened today. It just wasn't a good day. I feel like all I ever do anymore is eat. The good thing about today was that I got all of my homework done. I got it done of course while I was supposed to be sleeping. I feel like I'm wired. I can't sleep. Maybe it's because I'm upset. I couldn't tell you all the things I'm upset about. It would take too long. For starters, I accidentally threw away a gas gift card that my aunt sent me, I need money for a new phone by Friday and I'm not counting on my paycheck sufficing it, I need money for Christmas presents...speaking of that I even asked my grandma if instead of her buying me a Christmas present if she would give me money before Christmas so I can buy other people presents. I don't understand why I don't have money. All my money goes to food and gas. I seriously just wish I could drop out of college and get a real job. This minimum wage bullshit ain't cutting it. It's really hard working at a daycare that pays less than all the other daycares in your county. It makes me angry. My job right now is the only one that is going to work with my schedule. Next semester's going to kick my ass. I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm overwhelmed. Fuck everything. Ugh, I know I'm complaining and I probably shouldn't be. I bet there are so many more people with more serious problems with me, but it's just so hard juggling so many different things. Whatever, I'm done.

xoxo :/

November 8, 2011

Okay, so seriously...fuck my dad. I've never met a bigger asshole. He seriously could fall of the face of the planet right now and I wouldn't care. He's a manipulative, sneaky, conniving little bastard. There's a nice little hot coal with your name on it in hell.

October 18, 2011

Today was weird. Too many emotions. Too much homework. Not enough sleep. Need a miracle.

September 27, 2011

I'm having a lot of problems lately. I'm moving Saturday. I'm doing bad in school. My relationship's a little rough this second. My parents are driving me crazy with threats. I can't seem to make anyone happy. I just want to disappear for a day or two and get my mind right. I keep feeling guilty, everything that's going on is my fault. I can't sleep at night so I fall asleep in class. I hate my job now. I don't understand why. I just need for my life to go back to the way things used to be.